lost & found

Bismillah and Assalamualaikum.

I've found a treasure chest. Full of highschool memories from my bestfriend's point of view. Those are the sweetest and the best moments of my life. Made me ponder upon myself and the changes I've gone through, which is a lot. How I was more expressive about my feelings, and how others' feelings are my top priorities at all times then.

And I also found this, something excerpted from what I wrote to a friend of mine (September 21, 2006   06:16 AM PDT)

... smtms plak bile kte rase cam bhgie, i have quite everything i long for, sddnly everything just fade away too fast it was just like a dream.. n it's very devastating... 

n kte xle slhkan sape2 coz life is really like a boat,
n like a wheel.. bile kte kt atas, either kte will take thing for granted, or kte treasure everything happened, it still fade away aftr smtms..
n bile kt bwh, slalunye, ppl will b very sedih, kecewa,depress, etc.. but we shud always thnk +ve.. it's just our turn to be kt bwh... i think.
Allah wat rule camtu so that ktorg will be grateful.. n wat ktorg pk balik, pnah x ktorg wat org laen rase pe yg ktorg rase.. antare sengaje or xsengaje, sedar or xsedar..

the thing is, let things go let things be..

"it is like getting on a raft n letting the current stream take u for a ride.. when u try to go against the stream or go upstream as many ppl want to do in life, u end up exhausted, angry, bitter n completely confused. The key is to let go n enjoy the ride. The magic comes when u can learn to trust the Universe n let go; really let go n stop trying to control everything in life." ~quoted

end. coz smtms kte sendiri pun xsure dgn pe yg kte pk.. life's hard.

Well, this does sounds like me.